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I feel elated for no reason at all Feels weird This will be a happy one. Rising like flour mixed with yeast, i’ve attained something i always thought was out of my reach. Maybe it’s because of the way things are currently (i’m relating with a lot more humans than i’m normally comfortable with), or it’s a newly found sense of maturity. I used to believe that i was “socially awkward” main reason being that i’m extremely introverted, so i felt like they both came as a whole package, “one can’t exist without the other being there” kind of thing - silly me.... played myself for years with that stupid concept. I had to write this one as it happens 10:30pm 11/12/21, I experienced writers block - i completely hate it, makes me feel stupid. Sometimes it’s really ok to allow people into your headspace, eases the pressure off you a little.. sometimes you might not know where you’re going with whatever you’re doing or creating and others can because they see it from their own angles and give you d...

  I  can’t mess this up again! (* it’s hard!! *) Ever gotten so close to something, you can almost feel it, it’s all you dream about No matter how stupid it sounds It’s just up there, driving you..... Hard work is harder than it sounds.. and pain is much more painful when you can’t see the origin of said pain... As someone struggling with constant depression and anxiety, it’s sickening seeing how much people have branded it, giving it awareness - yes, but not in the way it’s supposed to be... It’s another sunday! I think this is my new release day - soft! 12:25 am 5/12/2021 I’m going through like five different phases in my life, scary, no element of excitement or thrill from my perspective.... if you ask me it’s a moving little bit too fast!!, let’s calm down! I’m falling off Plagiarism at its best.. Nothing is ever original, we are all spin offs of someone that was a spin off of something making more unique spin offs.... i think we call it traits, or something in that area. ...

  THIS PIECE MIGHT ME VOID OF A POINT (* peeps through the window cautiously *) Before you beat me... kindly kill that anger in you directed towards me and borrow me a clear mind for a minute or three, that’ll be enough time for me to think up an excuse.. I write this to you deprived of self confidence, I’ve probably always been like this so don’t throw me a pity party it’s really not necessary. Life presents me with a constant obstacle and poison to my physical and mental health.... what is it you may ask.... well it’s my “UNI” but don’t worry about it, i’m living a life characterised by suffering so it’s really not a big deal believe me..(* cry’s internally *) (* i miss this!!!! *) Perplexed by my own condition, “how did I get here?” is my only question, not the place, the situation and the state of mind!.... “choose to be happy” people say.... shut up! if i could don’t you think I would? don’t come at me with that “be a man” talk. Not many will relate to this, unless we are all ...

  I went into silence so i could just hear myself for a minute, well more like a month... but now I’M BACK!!!! For those of you that don’t know, I took a break from writing to develop a plan for this blog and every other thing... and I have great news; I FINALLY HAVE A PLAN infact PLANS!, but first let’s take a journey down memory lane. After announcing my purposed “break” from blogging, I almost instantly forgot the reason for taking this one month hiatus; to slow down a little and develop a plan and maybe a creative process while at it. my GOAT! “There’s still time” I said to myself and boyyy was I wrong, half way into my break and I hadn’t taken any step to drawing out a plan and realising it made it worse. Although I was doing things I said I would do like reading from other bloggers like Lammy A, Kiitan Jones and others, read books but still they felt like things i normally do, I played myself into thinking i was still on track... Comfort felt nice, I was back to how I was pri...

Omo Honestly that word is this piece summarised. As I sit here at the dinning table, using a red pen to write(not regular) because the ink in my last one finished/lost I can’t really remember, “so how am I going to start this?”is the only question moving in my head. To be honest is just pen to paper, let the spirit lead I guess. 20 hours into October(as at the time of writing this) I have seen and learnt a lot from the month already, making me feel a plethora of emotions..... Extremely annoying. I envy you if you had a very good October 1st, must be nice!. Anyways, the fact that I don’t have a plan for almost anything at all, the blog, school, all of it!, decided to bother me today and all i can say is “OMO”. I’ve deceived myself to thinking that it’s ok to not have a plan/ process or something similar to execute something. BIGGEST LIE! Luckily the truth came out quickly, sliding me into slight anxiety which i handled better than I could ever imagine. Maybe because like i’ve always sai...

the making  Life! The most meaningful yet meaningless thing we will ever experience  The beginning the end and everything in between All of this we are holding onto will become the past, your past, our past, a past that people call “LEGACY”. In the end it’s just you not and someone else - your own race! Life! So annoyingly beautiful - sacred. It’s every emotion; happiness, sadness, anxiety, joy and everything else. Life! A mission with no pre-set goal than the ones we give ourselves - free will. Maximum power given to us, which no one has control over (unless you give them.) *enough!!* This things are just random thoughts Honestly not even the main basis of today’s story, nothing ever is, no creative process, as it comes i pour it out. It’s another saturday morning (at the time of writing this!), not so different from the last. Ok maybe a little different for some reason the smell of burning plastic lingers in the air as I sit by my window writing this piece breathing in pollu...

  A big wave is coming. Heck the wave has started and it has a name. We call it the OUTLAW MOVEMENT(REMEBER IT!!), who is leading this movement? you may ask…. who else?!…the  one who owns the title  OUTLAW KING , VICTONY! *cut!* Lets try this again, this time, I’ll need you to be as imaginative as possible. ( *i’m about to get cheesy asf* ) Imagine a sound so foreign yet so familiar, in an embodiment of grace and eternal bliss… Imagine a constant reminder of home, imagine almost absolute perfection.   Beautiful isn’t it Its not easy building a following talk-less of a full community(which I am a proud member of) as an artist, some might even say “its pointless, just put out your music and whoever likes your sound likes it” but I believe music is one of those things you cant just go into without having a solid plan even if you’re so good!. Ebelebe had a plan, he had a whole team ready to assemble a full battalion and take the world by storm and they assembled one hell...