something’s and nothing

 

THIS PIECE MIGHT ME VOID OF A POINT

(*peeps through the window cautiously*)

Before you beat me... kindly kill that anger in you directed towards me and borrow me a clear mind for a minute or three, that’ll be enough time for me to think up an excuse..

I write this to you deprived of self confidence, I’ve probably always been like this so don’t throw me a pity party it’s really not necessary.

Life presents me with a constant obstacle and poison to my physical and mental health.... what is it you may ask.... well it’s my “UNI” but don’t worry about it, i’m living a life characterised by suffering so it’s really not a big deal believe me..(*cry’s internally*)

(*i miss this!!!!*)

Perplexed by my own condition, “how did I get here?” is my only question, not the place, the situation and the state of mind!.... “choose to be happy” people say.... shut up! if i could don’t you think I would? don’t come at me with that “be a man” talk. Not many will relate to this, unless we are all faking those pretty smiles, if that’s the case, bloody liars that’s what we are.

I was able to get very close to one of the things I desperately needed and still need at the moment with the help of a friend obviously, which brings me to this.

How much do you think you can do / create on your own, all by yourself without any form of assistance from anyone or anything... bluntly speaking you can do absolutely nothing on your own, no matter how you want to look at it!, from the moment you were born, to whatever you are now, you were assisted in one way or the other be it by family members , friends or outright strangers that turned out to be so much more than that, holding a part in the formation of what you are today, a creature of higher intelligence with your own reality and fantasies with the bridge between them, your dreams!, all possible because you were cursed or blessed with free will.

Everything i say is based off my own perceptions.

Doesn’t mean it’s absolute or anything 

But if, just if humans didn’t have any other option than to follow one path, one path ordained by someone somewhere... call it God, Allah or whatever you believe in... if we didn’t have the opportunity to choose what we want, right or wrong it means we won’t feel... Emotions the by-product of free will, you could call it a double edged sword, the gift that comes with a warning and the curse we can’t do without, the playground for good and evil.

That energy of a thousand possibilities, a thousand ways or more your life could play out, all in your hands, you control it all, everything you feel you made yourself feel it, you might be guided by someone or something but you made that choice to seek guidance and be guided.... 

Your success story?, it’s on it’s way, It might have already started 

but maybe not in the way you’re expecting it to go.. life evolves, changes and comes at all of us hard!, evolve, change and go hard at it too! (*i should listen to myself more!*)

The king of misery management - feels like you can help everybody, everybody but your self, for some reason you feel like you don’t “deserve” help.

Believe me help helps.

Hey guys...

Thank you for borrowing me minutes of your time, unfortunately I couldn’t think up an excuse, it’s been a rollercoaster this past few weeks!

I had to write an IT report of 21 pages in like 3 days with the deadline breathing down my neck, as if that was not enough I also had a presentation to defend the report and being the person that I am, anxiety nearly kee me!, i don’t do well with crowds even if they are people I know.. I know it’s sad! Somehow i survived, it’s a familiar yet foreign environment... familiar in the sense that i’ve spent like 3 plus years in this school and i’m in my final lap (year)(yayyy me!) also foreign in the sense that i’ve not been put under this long streak of pressure and stress ever before in just 3 weeks!.... omo!!! it’s a different type of wild to be honest, it’s void of motivation here, but that’s nobody’s problem but mine, so i have to make it work somehow.

I think i can promise consistency to an extent now!

And yesss i have two logos now designed by a very good friend Kiitan Jones also a writer and he’s currently teaching a class of 60 plus people about affiliate marketing!, proper doings!

Well till next week!

Ahhh yess before i forget i have a mailing list now which you can subscribe to here the only compulsory field is your email address, you can ignore the rest..

Thank you for your time!

Written and compiled by LOCAL MAN the WRITER