2021(additions.... subtractions)

1 year, 365 days..

So much yet still so little.

So many phases.... one being.

Recurring.... replaying.... re-experiencing.

Let’s take a trip down memory lane shall we...

What era?.... What time?.... I’d say my earliest memory of this year and we move down from there.

I was a blank yet distorted slate... i still might be who knows..... lost myself in myself, i was in a place i understood mentally but i allowed it to consume me... I helped myself damage myself.

It didn’t look like it but i gave up on everything and i was ok with it.... i mean why stress right... “It’d all be pointless in the end” my philosophy of life back then... to live is to die... so i didn’t get too attached.. emotions? far from me.... let myself feel.... but didn’t let my face show reactions.... hard guy... stupid boy!

Questioned a lot of things!

I was still sane...

So i did what any sane person would do... get help.. but i didn’t know how to ask for help.. What was i going to say... “Help me... I have no idea who tf i am!”? at the end of the day i’m the only one that can answer that question for myself..

“Create your Asylum!”(i’m not mentally ill)

Met some people along the way... old and new.... wonderful human beings! helped create the foundation and i built from there....(FRVKY, KIITAN, JOHN).

“Let people help you!”(be selective still)

Also one wicked academic year.... made my best GPA ever in July another human being helped with that(KASHY)he can be a bastard at times too...

Created LOCALITY a month later... my best mistake this year?...arguably, absolutely loved it.... my Asylum, my stage, my audience.

Achieved a lot too, small wins... big ones.... experienced growth for like the first time ever... i allowed my face show reaction.... even if 80% of the time it’s irritation or anger....

Made money.... and i don’t even know where it all went to bayi.... i was able to save some still.

Didn’t take pictures... i’m planning to improve on that..

The best and the worst was still yet to come...

Isn’t that crazy.

August down to October had some sort of routine to it... because i was on IT i was on a schedule.... toggled between on and off on a lot of things... the whole balancing things out was still foreign to me.... i eased into it.. now that i think about it... i appreciated myself more...

Made stupid moves.. all of which were complete shots in the dark, luckily some hit the target and some only God knows where the bullets/arrows (any one that tickles your fancy) are headed.

Stopped writing for a while.

“Hype yourself!”(who else will do it for you?)

The rest of the year from there, i was all over the place... here, there and nowhere...i’m still trying to find my grounds...

Met someone again!(NENE a friend-fan... maybe the only friend i made in the last quarter of the year..)famous for her “very ploud of you” comment on this blog(she fit kill me if she see this thing).

Started writing again....

Self realisation set in....

Everything felt right and wrong at the same time.

Felt genuine happiness for the first time in a long time... didn’t last long.. but it was nice..

Then December happened.

Collaborated with “THE DYSFUNKTIONALS”(you should check out their podcast... available everywhere you get your podcast!)

Tobe!!

Death took him away.

19/12/2021

Who is Tobe?!

Tobe a big man with a big heart...

The biggest!!

I’m not going to lie it still feels like it’s a lie!

The teacher that taught without teaching 

Spoke about life..... full of it!

Saw the best in everybody and wanted to bring it out.

Still can’t believe i’m using his name in the past tense..

Cruel.

RIP my bro🕊❤️

I don’t need reminders... but it just comes..

I became the project manager on the JETRON team!.... smart creative minds.... those are the people i’m working with!! and we always have something cooking.... you can check one of our website here, the other is on its way...and if you want to know who our CEO is, click here.... man is a genius in the flesh!....finally!! I’m part of something bigger than myself!... best way to end the year for me.

What is this about?

It’s everything... it’s not a sad story, it’s not a happy one either it’s  just what it is... my story in a year.. my reality... whatever way you wish to interpret it, it’s up to you...

The positives and the negatives that made up my 2021...

I’m happy that i didn’t paint a picture of perfection when i started this.

My highlight of the year?.... it’s everything... both the good and the bad... myself, academics, this blog, Tobe, JETRON and of course you on the other side of this screen! somehow you made my life feel good.... i mean 1.2k total views?!! that’s a lot in my books.. and i hope i made some sort of difference in your life as well!

At the end of the day, it can only be God!

Make more memories with the people you love...

Cheers to the New year!.. should be a good one for all of us... hopefully

The year isn’t over yet.... something else might still happen.

Stay soft<3

I love each and everyone of you!

Till whenever.

Written and compiled by kayode - LOCAL MAN