EXIT



Omo

Honestly that word is this piece summarised.

As I sit here at the dinning table, using a red pen to write(not regular) because the ink in my last one finished/lost I can’t really remember, “so how am I going to start this?”is the only question moving in my head. To be honest is just pen to paper, let the spirit lead I guess.

20 hours into October(as at the time of writing this) I have seen and learnt a lot from the month already, making me feel a plethora of emotions.....

Extremely annoying. I envy you if you had a very good October 1st, must be nice!.

Anyways, the fact that I don’t have a plan for almost anything at all, the blog, school, all of it!, decided to bother me today and all i can say is “OMO”.

I’ve deceived myself to thinking that it’s ok to not have a plan/ process or something similar to execute something. BIGGEST LIE!

Luckily the truth came out quickly, sliding me into slight anxiety which i handled better than I could ever imagine.

Maybe because like i’ve always said, I started this based on impulse and I probably didn’t realise how important to me it would later become, to the extent that as tired as I always am, i find a way to squeeze out something to post every Friday/Saturday whilst dealing with reality checks that i chose to ignore and suppress till today.

TOUGH TIMES!(*Heaven by DTS feat BUJU plays in the background* )

With my IT, everything else and the blog, it’s like balancing what doesn’t want to be balanced, I even went for a blood test today for Ulcer; H.Polori or something like that, thankfully it was negative, problems for just choke(that information no to important).

It feels like everybody is working sooo hard and they have enough to show for it and I have nothing... but Rome wasn’t built in a day.

So it’s back to the drawing board.

I’ll be taking a break to develop a creative process, understand and maybe focus on some other thing i’ve stopped, read books, read from other bloggers, listen to podcasts.... A form of metamorphosis for me, to break free from this “writers block”, hopefully it will be what I need and definitely I’ll have more tales to tell about everything.

Chill.

I think that’s a plan.

Nice, Improvements already!

How long will this break take? I don’t know but it shouldn’t take too long, I might need likkle assistance but I’ll move through it, giving life to a new persona “LOCAL MAN the CALM and COMPOSED”.

Soft!

We will have a lot to talk about when the new persona is created!, take this as a new chapter, an opening to something else from something else.

Well this is already getting too long for my liking.

Till whenever!

Toodles!!

Written & compiled by LOCAL MAN in his entirety


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