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 (*andddd action!*)

So... i realized lately in-fact i’ve always known how complicated and confusing my essence of life is... it just really came to light not long ago... i’m not someone who gets everything i want very easily... it’s been tuff asf!.. but yeah i’ve learnt to live with it because it’s my reality, it’s my REAL LIFE so i definitely won’t shy away from it... i definitely have always wanted certain things for myself but couldn’t get it because of “some things”(basically laziness)...

 The switch up in life from a little child transcending into adult hood isn’t talked about enough.... we constantly realize a lot more about the world and about ourselves on a daily... exposed to different perspectives to things and agreeing to the ones that suit us and align with the principles we’ve set for ourselves depending on the things we’ve  REALIZEd and learnt... meeting with certain people has shown me how truly different we all are no matter how much the similarities are; different people with different takes(opinions) on things..and this is where my essence gets complicated/confusing... i’ve learnt to live with certain things.. like my anxiety and depression which i now draw energy from btw(i “might” explain in the future🙏🏾)but i still can’t live with the fact that i don’t have my own principle(in my context) meaning i don’t have/agree with a certain perspective.... but i do... i agree with virtually all perspectives whilst knowing the principle of good and evil so you could call me a perspective prostitute... i feel there’s a reason why people think the way they do and why they do the thing they do too... so nobody is ever truly wrong... two sides of a coin, two sides to a story; each side doesn’t make the other less true or valid...does it? so it all depends on which side people believe/trust better...right?... it’s all complex, confusing  and beautiful to me(i’ve contradicted myself!).

(*life is not problematic.... or is it?!*)

There’s a handful of things we think we understand but in the true sense we actually don’t, we tell ourselves we do so that we can shun those little voices telling us to dig deeper(like the way we type “ooh i get” when we don’t really get s**t ).... or maybe that’s how it’s meant to be, maybe something’s aren’t worth questioning, maybe things will get much more complicated that it already is... who knows.

Our generation makes it difficult to have a permanent say because each passing day something new comes up that demands or seek normalisation... at the same time certain people believe that if it needs to be normalised it wasn’t normal in the first place(i’m drifting)... and at the same time! this brings about the question “because its abnormal does it mean it’s completely bad or wrong?”

(*To be continued*)